Joy and fear

So, just over two weeks to go. I am ... not yet where I should be. I have not lost the 6 kgs yet that I should have, so I am scared because of that. I am now on a diet of shakes and normal food mixed, and trying to keep firmly on the straight and narrow. Fear is a strong motivator too... 

The other day I had a bit of a panic moment. condisering the changes to my body, and that this is not exactly reversible... I REALLY hope that I will be one of those who has a positive outcome after the operation, and that it will be easier than I imagine it. Because I imagine it to be REALLY hard. Also a bit scared about Thor not quite understanding what is going on, and whether he will be gentle enough after the operation. He understands ouch, so I suppose that is were I'll communicate. He can also see the bandages, so I suppose he will comprehend that it is not business as usual. I certainly don't want him jumping on my stomach post op!

This weekend I'll try to be active and burn calories, in order to get as light as possible before the pre-operative talk on Tuesday 18th with the anesthetist and the surgeon. I guess that is the moment of truth..

My measurements for my national costume last year.
That got put on hold when I decided on the operation..